I am myself, but fading away

I Am
I am myself, but fading away.
I wonder where did it all go wrong?
I hear the nothing but my internal screaming,
I see everything fade to black.
I want to go back to before everything started.
I am me, but fading away.

I pretend the nights haven't become long and the tears aren't painful.
I feel gaping hole in the center of my being.
I touch the cold emptiness where happiness used to be.
I worry that this is the end.
I cry out to be heard, but no one is listening.
I am myself, but fading away.

I understand, I shouldn't be feeling this way.
I say to you that I'm fine
I dream that one day you'll all see the truth.
I try my best, not to bring them my sorrows, but the fake smiles are gone.
I hope there will be a day when there is no sorrow, no loneliness.
I am myself, but fading to the dark.